Interaction

I fail to understand people... For the most part, I can not begin to imagine why some people do what they do. And I'm sure that that is very common or we would all be criminal profilers. Oddly enough however, it is not the big heinous crimes that make me question peoples motives, in fact I can justify most of them. It is the little decisions that have my mind exploding.

This failure to understand is not only limited to other people, but can also apply to myself. I constantly look back at actions and go "why the fuck would I do that" .... Maybe that's it... Maybe the reason I can't understand other peoples motives is because they don't have any/even they don't know why they did it....

I really do wish that for one day I could read minds. To hear what everyone was thinking, to know what went through their head before they made a decision and to know how much of what people say is fact vs crap would be amazing.

"Only two things in life are certain; death and taxes"
- Benjamin Franklin

Someday, Somehow

someday somehow, everything will work out, everything will just slot into place and i will have nothing to worry about, but everything to be happy about.

Comparisons

I hate people who compare their life to other peoples in order to make their problems feel smaller. Yes there are people who are going through worse then you... Its not a good fact of life - but a fact of life none-the-less. However! The issues that we go through and the emotions we feel as a result are there for a reason. Passing it off by saying "oh these people have to deal with worse daily" is a bullshit cop-out.

I would love to see the origin of this comparison because I bet it started by being told to someone who was crying over a tiny issue - and i believe this is an acceptable time to you it as a comparison. But when people start using it for real problems that's when I get frustrated.

I would now like to turn to a massively over used saying but I cannot think of anything better to demonstrate my point;

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Everyone has faults, issues and bad times .... Learn the lessons that are to be learnt from them.... Don't pass them off via comparison...

Decisions

Its amazing how each decision sets the future. Look back and try imagine where you would be had you decided to do one little thing differently; weather it was study instead of going out, quitting instead of sticking with something, or even just talking to a person for the first time which resulted in one of the most amazing friendships ever. Each decision carrys a result. It can be good or bad, big or small, but its there.

We reevalutate the big decisions in our lifes; "Is this career the right one for me" etc, but we never take the time to evaluate the little decisions that set up things as large as the meeting of a best friend, the step to the happiest days of our lifes etc.

Don't let anyone ever tell you the future is decided, and don't ever take a decision for granted because each decision defines your life and who you are.... Big or small.

When you have to make a choice and don't make it, that is in itself a choice.
- William Jones

Welcome Back

Well this is an odd feeling... After spending 20 minutes trying to remember my password and user name, then finding a help area I have finally logged back on.

A lot has changed since the last blog I posted which was over a year back I think.

Amusingly, the topic of this blog is the same as the first blog I posted on this site, "People"

We as humans are terribly complex and unpredictable people. It is not just our physical attributes that are unique but our personalities and beliefs are also unique to each individual. Whilst this is a beautiful thing for us to have as a human race it also is the root of many issues, complications and fights. Currently, it seems that with a few people, one in particular, that the way we feel towards each other changes in every conversation that begins. Heck! It can change multiple times per conversation. This astounds me because I want things to be happy with this person, I want to communicate fluently and happily, so why cant this happen?

Its amazing how a person can have you thinking taking a giant plunge. This plunge alters from person to person depending once again on our personalities but the result is the same. The funniest thing about this is those people who force up to take the risky plunge, are often ones that hurt us. It may not be instantaneous, but eventually, chances are those who you unconventionally put your trust in, they will let your down. I know, it recently happened. No matter how much I want it to be different and tell myself it is, tell myself it will work, the result is the same. It wont. Once again it may not be instant that it doesn't work, but I don't want that suffering at the end, even for the happiness at the beginning. (I just realised I've gone on a tangent that has nothing to do with the start of this topic.... All well)

Well there is one poorly written piece, with no cohesion what so ever, but fuck it. What needs to be out there is out there

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."

- Bob Marley